This is Kenneth.
Today is by far the longest day of the week for me and my entire class. Our class started 9:00am, good thing our Professor didn’t consume his three hours period. Anyway, we were scheduled to have our preliminary exam in Business Math today as well. Apparently, I left something really essential for the exam so I needed to get it at home and while at it, I had lunch at home. Upon arriving at the campus only few of my classmates were inside the room, then noona came in.
Em Noona is someone I really trust and look up to among all my classmates, she treats me as her younger brother that is why I treat her as an older sister. So usually whenever we have conversations, it is me who always needed her advice on things I find hard to decide with, I always seek for her insights and suggestions. Because for a reason, I know she would give me good and rational ideas. But today, it was different, I have always seen her as a very independent and empowered woman, that with all her experience I knew life wouldn’t be that difficult for her, but I was wrong. We’ve talked about serious matters, it was about her seemed to be a start of her unrequited love. She was sharing me her story as if I am mature enough to understand everything, even though I do understand it. The feeling was very overwhelming in some way because in my mind I had this thought, “sometimes even the strongest of the strongest buildings would collapse and fall when its pillars are already damaged.” I actually felt bad about myself because our conversation made her cry and remember everything she was trying to forget. I was about to cry, but I was holding it in. I want her to have that moment. I couldn’t write the things she have told me here, for her privacy. But I’m really sure that whoever hears her story, you will really feel her love and fear at the same time, I couldn’t describe it in words but seriously while we were talking I just wanted to somehow make her feel good, even though I know she is also doing such for herself, I wanted to tell her that there are a lot of things to be happy and thankful for everyday, Em noona taught be that, I just want her to know that she is one of the many people I remember whenever I’m feeling down, she is one of the many people whom have somehow influenced me on how I view things. She would always tell me “just think positive and make the best out of everything, because everything depends on how a person see and take things.”
While writing this I’m getting a lil bit emotional, not because I can relate or what, to be honest if people would know her story I guess they can just say that such stories only happen in dramas, in movies and the likes. But seriously, if you could just put your feet in her shoes, you would feel the pain with her, for her. I hugged noona, because I think thats the only thing I can do for now, I can include prayers tho. But still, I guess I couldn’t comfort her to the extent that she’d be okay after but I hope the sincerity and respect I have shown gave her day a boost.
Noona! Just like what I have told you earlier, you are one of the strongest person I’ve ever met. I know in time, you will surpass everything, you deserve to be happy, you will be happy. One more, always keep in mind, just like what you always tell me, tell everybody “just think positive!”. Noona, fighting! Love love. ~xoxo
P.S – We had preliminary exam for Mathematics of Investment today, got so many hella papers to check tho. ㅠ.ㅠ
At this rate, I’ll be wrapping this up! See you!